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~ Left my safe “nest," regretting move ~
Mental Health | Last Active: Dec 17, 2017 | Replies (18)Comment receiving replies
@amberpep -- so sorry to hear that you can't make it to your therapist this week due to your car (also sorry to hear about that) and that he didn't have another time for you to talk. Sounds like his suggestion you find a closer therapist really hurt. It also sounds like you've taken a lot of time to develop a relationship of trust with him, and thus it's very understandable you want to stay with him and not start all over.
Since he's unavailable, what are you thinking will help you get through the holidays?
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Hi Lisa ... thanks so much for responding. How to get through the holidays .... good question. When I lived in MD, I just ignored it and pretended it was just any other day, but now that I'm in VA I will be going to my daughter's who has the 2 kids - ages 8 and 11 - and it will be festive, joyous, fun, full of good food, and close relationships ..... I'll just do as I always have done .... rather dissociate from it all, be in my own little world somewhere else, appearing to be part of everything but not really. Our whole family will be there - small though it is - and that includes my X-husband. That doesn't make it any easier as the question still haunts me as to "why wasen't I good enough? why did you "throw me away"? why wouldn't you pick up your piece of our marriage and work on it?. That all leads to "what is wrong with me?" But, with him being a full blown narcissist, I know the answers to all those questions .... somehow those voices keep showing up on holidays.
abby