Hi Dianna,
I had my heart transplant 2 years ago at age 52. I had a long, emotional and anxiety-ridden path to transplant. At age 35 I had a surgery with complications leading to septic shock, cardiomyopathy and eventually heart failure. Given it was a surgery that led me to the need for a heart transplant, I wasn't eager to jump into another surgery. My husband thought it was an easy decision because we have two children.
My approach was measured. My anxiety was so high that I could only cope with things step-by-step. For example, like you, my doctor suggested I interview for the heart transplant. I could commit to that because they could turn me down or if they approved me I could move on to my next decision which was to decide if I wanted to go on the waiting list. Once I went on the waiting list, I still had time to decide if I could go through with the surgery.
Wishing you some peace through your process.