Mine did not come on suddenly it’s just I think a manifestation of the depression and anxiety in my life and just realizing that we are all going to die we don’t know what it feels like we don’t know what happens afterwards and whoever put us here was cruel. Whether it be God or some other entity, it’s designed so that we don’t understand and we will never know and I absolutely hate that thought and it’s just driving me crazy. Then couple it with the fact that I feel like I could’ve done more with my life, but I didn’t. It was wasted pretty much of it. some things were beyond my control but some things I could have done better. I don’t know what I want to happen to me when I die. I hate the thought of being burned up and I hate the the thought of being buried and there isn’t any other option. I’m just disgusted with ever being born. And truthfully, well in a way it’s good to know that there are lots of other people that feel the same way what it comes down to us that we are all suffering and no one has an answer. They’re absolutely is no answer so it’s just like you have to distract yourself for the rest of your life and hope that you die easy. Sorry I couldn’t really be on any help but I just think it’s all black and life is pretty much useless.