I sometimes don’t get out of bed until the afternoon. There’s nothing I wish to do because I can’t do what I really want to do. So I just sleep. I have several medical issues in including chronic pain from inoperable spine degeneration and just diagnosed with breast cancer.
I’m only 72 and because I was always so fit I just can’t accept my limitations. The breast cancer has been removed and it was so small I don’t need chemo, thank goodness. But now I live with the specter of it returning.
I am not able to see the glass half full despite having so much to be thankful for. I’m on three different antidepressants and they barely touch the sadness. I just feel blindsided by my health problems at such a young age. I say young because my grandparents and parents lived well into their 90’s. I can’t imagine living like this for another 20 years.