WHEN I START THINKING ABOUT ALL THE THINGS I DID WRONG IN THE PAST IT HELPS TO READ THE SCRIPTURES. THE PSALMS ARE PERFECT FOR THIS. KING DAVID DID SOME HORRIBLE THINGS THAT YOU WOULD THINK GOD WOULD HAVE A HARD TIME FORGIVING. HE HAD SOMEONE MURDERED SO HE COULD MARRY HIS WIDOW WITH WHOM HE HAD COMMITED ADULTRY WITH. WHEN DAVID FINALLY FACED HIS SINS HE WROTE SOME OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PSALMS EXPRESING HIS SORROW, AND REGRET OVER WHAT HE HAD DONE. HE ASKED GOD TO SHOW HIM ALL OF HIS SINS, AND ASKED GOD TO PUT IN HIM A CLEAN HEART. YOU'VE PROBABLY READ IT. GOD CALLED DAVID A MAN AFTER HIS OWN HEART. IT IS CLEAR IN THE SCRIPTURES THAT GOD FORGAVE HIM. YES DAVID HAD TO SUFFER SOME CONSEQUENCES HAVING THE CHILD THAT WAS A PRODUCT OF HIS ADULTRY DIE. BUT BATSHEBA AND DAVID THEN HAD SOLOMON. NOW SOLOMON WAS VERY BLESSED BY GOD, AND EVEN THOUGH HE MADE A LOT OF MISTAKES OF HIS OWN, INVOLVING TOO MANY WIVES THAT LEAD HIM TO SIN AGAINST GOD, HE TOO WROTE SOME VERY MOVING THINGS THAT WOUND UP IN SCRIPTURES THAT INDICATED HE TOO REPENTED. ANYWAY, WHEN YOU THINK OF THESE THINGS, IT IS HARD TO FEEL THAT GOD CAN'T FORGIVE YOU FOR ANYTHING YOU HAVE DONE. I SUGGEST YOU FIND AN UNDERSTANDING RABBI YOU CAN TALK TO AND LET HIM HELP YOU THROUGH THIS. ALSO DEVOTING AS MUCH TIME AS YOU CAN DOING WHAT YOU CAN TO HELP OTHERS IN NEED. THINKING ABOUT THOSE WHO ARE IN NEED CAN HELP KEEP YOU FROM FOCUSING ON YOURSELF AND YOUR GUILT AND REGRET FOR PAST DEEDS, THINGS YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT NOW. IN OTHER WORDS, YOU DID WRONG IN THE PAST, BUT YOU CAN DO GOOD NOW. BUY THE WAY, I AM A CHRISTIAN WHO READS THE WHOLE BIBLE. SHALOM!