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No motivation — feel like I'm going down a black hole
Mental Health | Last Active: Apr 24, 2018 | Replies (60)Comment receiving replies
Hello Abby, @amberpep
I like what you said, "but inside it’s a push." For any of us who are recovering from depression that "inside push" is what we need to remember. It represents self-care and we need that so much.
Teresa
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Hello Abby, @amberpep
I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling out of sorts right now. You have just come back from being out of town for your appointments and you have come back to your new place - I can understand how you must feel a little estranged from your prior home(s) and connections. Take a break and give yourself some time to adjust.
Do something nice for yourself! You have shared some very helpful posts with our Members over the past couple of days and I've appreciated having you back with us!
Teresa
Thank you Teresa ...
abby
Hi, Abby @amberpep -- so sorry you are feeling depressed and alone. You mentioned you've come to the conclusion that this is where you will live out the rest of your days. Just clarifying whether you meant in your new city in VA or in Frederick?
Hi, Abby @amberpep Do you drive your own car? I know that you're living in the middle of some of the most beautiful areas of the US. Have you poked around the back roads yet? Maybe you'll find a pretty spot to sit and meditate.
Jim
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Well, I think what I need today is a kick in the pants! (sorry) Most of you probably know about 2-1/2 years I moved from Frederick, MD. to western VA to be closer to my kids. The duplex I got was still about 45 min. away from my girls and too expensive for me. So, about 4 weeks ago I moved into a limited-income apartment complex, which is closer to my girls and their families. My son lives outside D.C. I loved my condo, which is what I bought after a divorce from a 40 year marriage .... I felt free, knew the town like the back of my hand, had good friends and a great church. I'd lived in that county for 30 years. I was very content and cozy. Well, I've come to the conclusion that this is where I will live out the rest of my days. My girls are being very sweet, but I'm just not happy. I miss everything about Frederick - my condo, my friends, my church, and just knowing Frederick like the back of my hand. I've resigned myself that "this is it." Everything is so foreign feeling, I have a terrible time getting anywhere. I've had digestive issues ever since I was getting ready to leave MD, and that continues still. I know that's anxiety. My condo was sold, so I can't go back to "my place" any longer. I feel extremely alone, lonesome, and depressed. I have not unpacked one thing except for what my girls did for me. I just don't care.
abby