Hi shoregal .... you know, I'd rather just not go to anyone new than try to find a new Psychologist. When I first saw this therapist, within 2 sessions he told me that I was like "good Suzie," meaning I never made waves, never spoke up, never said or did anything that I thought could make someone else upset or angry. Then he told me "we're going to dismantle her." WHAT? Aren't we supposed to "behave?" Well, because of my entire background, I literally had no voice, stayed quiet never offering an opinion on anything .... my mother's usual name for me was "you rotten little s.o.b." I lived in terror that they were going to throw me out, as she so often threatened to do. This doctor has helped me immensely with all that, but now with this new issue, I guess I'm not as far as I thought I was. Those ugly voices of my mother still linger. Changing a therapist after 12 years would be a nightmare ..... I trust this man, one of only 3 men I do trust ...... my son, one of my sil's, and my therapist. Pretty pathetic I know, but whenever I meet or even walk by a man I can feel my body stiffen up. I told my therapist once that I consider them all "sexually driven animals." Obviously I was also sexually abused as a child. So, the thought of trying to find another therapist is just something I can't go through again.
abby