I quit 12/16/17, after starting at 12 and 4 stints in Treatment. There is some good stuff people have shared here. Take it an hour, at a time if needed. Just tell yourself, for the next hour I am not drinking. I also utilize AA. My partner of 28 years, I found dead in the kitchen floor from alcoholism. That is a reality. He was 56. I also try and play the tape forward..."what if I did drink..." then I am flooded with the memories of not being able to stop, the shakes, the obsession. Thank you for sharing here! Hang in there.