@rmkall Welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect!

Having a diagnosis of autism, we know it is indeed a spectrum condition. We may sway into varying degrees of triggers and sensory inputs. Do you recall the situations you had when younger that gave you those joys you seek again? Was it a particular environment, perhaps weather, perhaps time of day? Mimicking those again might open that magic door to you. Or relaxing into the knowledge that you could attain those similar moments again.

I see in your other posts that you have recently started some medications. I look forward to hearing from you about the effects they have on your situation, if you feel they are benefiting you and in what ways. I was pleased to read you feel comfortable with your doctor!
Ginger