I've outlived all of my best friends and I'm only 73. I'm not outgoing, so I don't make new friends very easily. Most of my casual friends were from work. My job was eliminated three years after my company was acquired by a bigger one. I was a contract worker for nearly two years until the covid lockdown when all the contract workers were let go. I have AFib, PVCs and PACs. My wife is considerably younger, still working and still active. I'm the oldest living member of the family and I live nearly an hour away from my younger sister, who's still working and keeps busy with her children and grandchildren. I don't function well in the heat and humidity. I've been dealing with various health issues for the past year (covid, vertigo, cervical spine issues, etc.) and then I was diagnosed with PMR in March, which probably started last October but was initially attributed to my cervical spine issues. In May I was diagnosed with SMM. My body has had to adjust to high dose prednisone for the PMR and then a fast taper off prednisone because of the SMM. I'm fatigued all the time and now in pain from the PMR. I can't work outside for more than 30-45 minutes at a time in the heat and humidity. My wife has taken over most of the outdoor chores. I lose my breath walking up the stairs. We live on a busy county road in NJ so there's no real neighborhood for walking or interacting with neighbors. I have arthritic knees, so it's difficult to walk the hard floors of the few remaining malls. I don't enjoy reading like I used to because my eyes get tired. I'm really starting to feel useless and unmotivated, and I sound like a grumpy and tired old man, even to me.