I will give some advice if is ok! Please remember it is always ok to feel a plethora of responses, anger , irritation and anxiety with frustration! It is how you use that makes it better for your loved one! You cannot change them .. but you can change how to deal with it! I say this, because they most likely won’t t remember.. but u will! I have my radio on and I am exercising with weights and dancing to some of the songs! Some of u know I lost my spouse May 24th. I cry, I get angry, I get joy when I remember the things he did and his presence! One day this may be u! Don’t have regrets! Love them in spite of what they say or do! Coz one day you won’t have them! I know this may sound weird but, the other day I woke up and I felt a bear hug! My spouse gave those all the times I was really overwhelmed or just needed it! I chose to believe it was him! God bless u all!