@gently yes thank you. I have wrote them 2 letters. One was good bye and the 2nd at my last appointment was I'm sorry I didn't think I was a good patient and hope I didn't offend them. The first was that I loved them and loved how they took care of me. The second was how I felt I embarrassed myself by breaking down trying to day I loved them. One therapist came and gave me a hug and on my last day I finally told them. I just had a hard time on talking to them because I was afraid I would cry and say wrong thing. I asked my urologist urologist if I did something wrong and he said that he would have said the same and would have been upset at me if I didn't try again to tell them that I love them. He told me that I always speak from my heart. At my next appt and last one all 3 gave me hugs again so I guess I didn't offend them. But I keep doubting myself and getting upset at myself because I didn't talk to them much at all. I know I am hard on myself but that's me.