it is a hard path to walk. i talked to my doctor about it and he said - i should leave the worry of reoccurrence with him. we have excellent diagnostic tools and treatment options to help catch a reoccurrence early.

from that conversation, i gave up my worry. i put it all in the hands of God and the medical staff.

i saw that my worry wasn't helping me prevent a reoccurrence and it did nothing to improve my daily life. my worry took away my joy in the present.

i spend my days doing things i love and i am surrounded by my husband and my numerous pets. i swim every day with my dog - i throw the ball in the pool and we race to get it, it's a highlight of my day and we swim about 25 laps.

if you like dogs and can have one were you live i highly recommend getting one. i have mine certified as a service dog and take her almost everywhere with me. she helps so much with anxiety and depression. she licks away tears and drops toys in my lap to cheer me up.