@sunnygardens I understand. I was recently reprimanded by my best friend for saying "I was going to (complete a task) but I was too lazy." She corrected me and said, "You were not too lazy, you were too tired from all the other things you do!" It put a different spin on "You do what you do with whatever (in this case, energy) you have. Now if I can just remember this, I won't waste energy on guilt! You sound like you are doing so much, I wish you peaceful thoughts for yourself too.