I prefer to not think about it as survivorship. I I'm not surviving I'm thriving. That thriving piece comes form me and me alone. I choose how to think about my experiences. I choose to be either a victim, survivor or thriver.

Doctors are often noncommittal. With rate diseases they have no answers. So it's up to us to decide how we live.

I don't talk with people about my experience with cancer because it almost always is shock and horror and then they pass the news which gets twisted over time. I won't talk to people about my experience who have had cancer and wear it like a badge or a death sentence I'm not berating them for their choice to do that. I just don't want to be in that camp.

I do have thoughts of cancer everyday
It's now part of who I am just like my blue eyes are part of who I am. Eventually I will think of cancer as often as I think of my blues eyes. Often but not obsessive.

I like these forums. They give me the opportunity to express myself without going public to my people.

Denise