Hi...oh my goodness...BIG HUG!!! If you were my neighbor I would walk you to a chair and make you a cup of tea, my Dear! And give you another BIIIGGG HUG!! You feel so not even misunderstood...just NOT understood. And I am so sorry. It is disintegrating to feel that you have so much going on and there are so few answers for you...I know, I'm in the same place. And on top of that it seems like your world is coming unglued at the same time. But Honey, here we are, right? Here we sit having our tea, trying not to cry...but it's ok to cry, ya know? This is not fair what we are going through. Just let it out with someone who will just be there for you for a little while. (I cry with an favorite old pillow sometimes.) It's an "ugly cry." That's okay. Cry it all out...I won't care if you don't!
And now... can't cry all day! No, we know we can't! That's not us really, really it's not! One more BIG HUG!! Whew!! That seemed to help, a little anyway. But...now what? We have to get ON WITH LIVING... I need to get in for a blood test I've been putting off. Don't you owe your little sister a call? How long has it been? Then I can help you Google your meds and see why they are making you sick and maybe what other ones you can tell your NEW Likeable Doctor to give to you instead.

Turn things a little bit Honey, just a little! There is some good out there if you look for it!!