@jenniferhunter absolutely I have been fighting with them since the day after surgery it just amazes me that two days not even two days after I had a surgery I had an infection and fevers so to me those types of infections and fevers usually take a lot longer to Feaster or grow, but I'm not a doctor so I don't really know, but in my experience, it takes much longer for an infection to to grow. I've been telling him that something is not right since I came out of surgery like I don't understand to this day I can still feel the hardness of the hardware in my back if that's the way I'm gonna feel the rest of my life when I'm sitting down I don't wanna feel like that with metal poking me in the back how comfortable is that? The funny thing is the surgeon told me prior to having surgery that I really didn't need to have the surgery that he was just gonna do it because I was having a lot of pain. He thought that it would probably heal on his own but convinced me to have the surgery because I was having all the pain so I'm not really just sure what to do. I'm in a lot of pain and obviously most of you know pain medication is like trying to find water in a desert, so the doctors want you to suffer even though they think that everyone everyone is gonna get addicted to them, but nevertheless, they're made for a reason and the reason is to help with pain. A crazy other thing is I was in the hospital for a month. I finally got discharged. I was gone for two days came home and I had cold chills, sweats, fever, nausea, vomiting just feeling like I was gonna die to be honest and I get back to the hospital and they don't say they don't seem to think anything's wrong. I'm not making up these symptoms of these symptoms just coming from the air or my brain or what and that's the thing with doctors. They don't care they don't investigate and they don't empathize enough. They just wanna get people in and out of the ER so in the end, this was not this past time but the second time I went to the ER I was admitted by a hospitalist who was amazing. He controlled my pain. He had the same surgery that I've had. You know exactly what I was going through and he made sure that I was taken care of while he was there. He only worked nights and the bad thing is I never saw him again because of course they're very busy and he may have checked my chart you know as doing rounds and things, but I just wasn't having any issues so there was no reason to come see me so I haven't seen him since but I've been trying to get in touch with him, but do you know how hard it is to get in touch with a hospitalist? It's like they disappear it's like they come to work and then they disappear. There's no way to get in touch with him and I don't think that's fair to us as patience to not be able to get in touch with a person who admits you who writes orders for you who takes care of you and they say oh well we pass you off to your primary care. Well, my primary care might not have the same opinion as you do so it's it's really really just killing me right now. I'm very frustrated. I'm I don't understand. I don't understand how healthcare can be like this and I don't understand how people can make it like this I mean, I'm almost 50. I'm not dead yet but I can promise you. I feel like I'm dead. I can't move. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I hurt all over and nobody will do anything. I just wish someone would do something. That's all God bless.