@marcd2k
I am so sorry that you are experiencing this. I pray that you will find help. Just keep taking one day at a time and seeking ways to help yourself stay centered. I find that $or me , practicing "Creative Visualization" several times a day is very helpful to me. It helps me calm my mind, and spirit and in doing so, also helps me deal with my 24/7 heavy pain level. I also start and end each day with an "attitude of gratitude." There is always so much to be grateful for in each and every day. Plus, finding gratitude helps me move out of pains control of my life, and it helps me seek ways to be present to family and friends each day. We don't know what others are dealing with, on any given day, While I can't remove my 24/7 pain level, I refuse to let it consume me. Ultimately, moving my attention from just myself, to also being present to others, helps in several different ways.. I hope that you will be able to find your own ways to cope with your pain each day and find positive things in your life too. You will be in my prayers each day.
mmata