I've been feeling helpless. I have a dog who I'm really attached to ANF she became very ill. During her ongoing recovery, I found the time to go ask my Dr why I'm losing so much weight. So I had a bunch of scans which my (very lazy) dr said I had no cancer. I'm still dropping pounds while trying to eat a lot of calories every day. I'm afraid I'll die and my dog won't recover (blood disorder). Every day I think dying would be such a relief from the stress I face daily. I've had heart palpitations for4 moths. I get the results in 9 days. And am scheduled for a Holder Monitor in 12 days. I have to ask a friend to watch my dog and another friend to drive me 120 miles to the cardio. It's all so hard for my 76 year old body and mind. I have a daughter who was incarcerated for hitting me. She was using. She's been clean 2 years and wants to live with me. I don't know what to do about anything.