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A Path I Never Chose

Cancer: Managing Symptoms | Last Active: May 25 7:34am | Replies (33)

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@shellyk89

How beautifully you write 🙏 I am in awe how beautiful your post is with all its rawness and expression of thoughts that we’re encouraged not to feel.

Thank you for sharing your experience with us. It broke my heart and I pray you find peaceful and joyful moments.

Your post has helped me to understand so much better those who feel as you do. I’m grateful to you. My experience has been so very different that I struggle sometimes to understand. My stage 4 appendix cancer diagnosis in my 50s when I was riding the peak of my career wave had a very dire prognosis. For some reason I wasn’t angry. For some reason I found it relatively easy to accept my time was likely to be short. For some reason I got enormous peace once I made peace with that. Who knows why I’m still here 5 years later after hectic treatment, in remission and with good quality of life - for now. (It’s not curable and it will come back).

I do feel incredible survivors guilt for those deserving of what I’ve been granted 💔

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@isadora2021 I'm happy for you finding peace. My sister made peace with her fate though it was a cancer that I survived 20 years ago, and she only had 3. I experienced the same guilt after my brother died from cancer 2-years after I had survived. This journey we call life is wondrously beautiful, yet often brutal. It appears that our expectations can make a difference in how we handle it.

@isadora2021 the uncertainties that come with cancer are daunting….each of us are different..as for me, i put my legal things and finances together, then must take it one step at a time.anything good that happens is a win, and they can add up and give us strength..for me, i try to bypass the guilt by helping other patients in a variety of ways— I learned that during my time in the hospital.