Wow you have really been through the wringer. I am so sorry you suffered so much from your accident. I just cannot imagine… I have multiple woes as well, recent invasive skin cancer, an atrial flutter diagnosis ( no risk factors other than age and female), and now thrush from too much antibiotics to clear up a persistent UTI. This is exactly why I went the mental health route- you get a source of validation, somebody in your corner who is neutral but supportive so you can vent, and hopefully someone who will challenge your thinking so you can adopt some new habits to help yourself! My experience with FB has not been great. I find there is an awful lot of negativity. I empathize, but I don’t need more of that….i would consider communicating outside of this platform if you think that might be of help. If I could be of Any help to one person through this awful pelvic pain stuff I would be happy. And yes, I agree there are Way too many surgeons who are blaming back issues for a myriad of things that probably have little to do with your spine. (I agree with your very learned friends). Let me know what you’re thinking. For me, when I reached a point of endless frustration and was also ready to just give up ( but Not end my life) is when I finally decided to try a different route. It’s kinda like the journey to sobriety- not everybody needs to hit rock bottom before they decide to get help. But you know yourself best and those are your decisions to make. Sorry you’ve had to endure so much. Ugh. 🙁 P.S. There is a free app called Insight Timer with thousands of meditations on every subject you can think of and many lessons on breath work. I subscribed two years ago and use it daily, but there is still a ton there that is helpful and free.