David, thank you for trusting us with this.

I’m so sorry you’re in this place. I’m stage 4 too, so I get the gut-punch of “chemo stopped working.” The weight of that is unreal unless you’re living it.

A bucket list road trip to Portland sounds like a way to take some of your power back. I hope the road gives you what you’re looking for — solace, beauty, moments that are just yours. I’ve thought about death with dignity as an option too. When you hit stage 4, you start asking what control you have left.

You’re not alone in thinking about it. Sending you strength for the miles ahead, whatever you decide. Please keep posting if you can. From one stage 4 to another — I see you