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@feygirrl I'm still in the grieving process, I think. I'm a middle-aged man that seemed to have somewhat of a bright future. I was confident in myself, I had some savings in the bank, and I was looking to progress in my career. I was looking forward to getting into a relationship and just being somewhat normal. I've already dealt with a lot of other issues in my life that I overcame and I was getting to a place of happiness. That all was snatched away within a few months. Now I'm wishing for to be somewhat normal again. I feel that is a long shot at this point. Now I'm alone and just trying to do what I can to feel descent. I've been going to physical therapy for almost a year, and I've been seeing a chiropractor. Crazy how life just flips on you. This has just been a lonely painful experience. I do deal with gout and I take allopurinol. Yes, that pain has gone away for the most part. I was told to take B12 vitamins. I'm just tired of being by myself. I want to go to support groups, but they are hard to find. I did attend a class at mayo that was helpful. Although it was depressing, it was nice to be around people that were dealing with the same thing as me. At this point I may have to find a partner that has issues like me. I did start to have a small crush on a woman in that class that I know I wasn't supposed to due to her relationship status. She didn't know it but that made me think there may be someone dealing with the same thing as me that may be looking for a relationship. Point being this is an adjustment to say the least, but I do appreciate your advice and the kind words.
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It's just so hard. I am fortunate that I have a sister I am close to and I am married. Even so, having a chronic illness can be isolating.
I find that my symptoms wax and wane as far as intensity goes and I try to weather the bad times by treating myself to something even if its small.
I think you will find a way to deal with your illness. I wish you luck and here is a hug! {{}}
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@jasonbrooksf life is like that. But I do believe it’s a duality always.. Life is about your attitude and how you handle your obstacles. I think we have to identify our priorities. If your priority is to be engaged with other people then find a volunteer group that engages you in a way that adds to your life. Just this morning I had some extremely negative occurrences pile up and throw me for a loop. Sometimes we must sit still in our desolation. we are being challenged. We might be receiving a lesson. A life lesson. It can’t all be roses. I am very lucky to have some incredible things in my life. But the opposite side of that incredible life is intense desolation. I will wait patiently or impatiently and take a break because something is waiting on the horizon. At 69 I know that. It’s just a matter of time until I get my mojo back and I’m busy working at something that completely engages me. For me it is my art.
When I was 34-36 I had a series of life altering astrology readings. They turned out to be all true. I learned about my character, about my isolation, about my aloneness in life, even though I had a couple marriages and family. That’s all gone. It would be nice to have a partner, but I am more focused on how I live the rest of my life alone, and with a sense of community. One of my astrologers told me once that my chart is riddled with all of this, but when it happens that I need to reach over to the good side. I have a checklist in my head, like a bucket list, and when I go through my “grieving“ and I am ready. My bucket list will be there for me. And then I will curiously Marvel that it was waiting for me all along. Since my brother committed suicide when we were young, it gave me the perspective that life is very precious and no matter what happens to us every day is a gift that is why they call it “the present.” I also have a bucket list in my head of really bad things, like being homeless, not being able to go to the grocery store, living in Gaza or Ukraine, and not having money in the bank to pay my bills. Things that I see all around me. That puts life in perspective. That I am very lucky indeed, to just have all these physical ailments for which I can sit in my cozy home, with my old dog and get up to do my artwork after I finish writing this thought. It’s all about perspective!