@shellyk89: I’ve been reading your posts for awhile. Since no one is in your shoes I can’t say “I understand”, but with stage 4 Neuroendocrine cancer metastasized to liver, those thoughts and words you write do have meaning to me. I wish that I had the power to infuse you with a big helping of love, peace and acceptance of where you are on this journey called life. We all come into this world alone and not one of us will make it out alive.
For understanding we cannot realize, we have been told our prognosis has limited time ahead. The rest of the world is not guaranteed a long lovely life but lives everyday expecting they will live forever. We now know they are the lucky ones… as they make future plans, goals and expectations for a better life to come. They don’t have to carry our burdens and can remain in a “Polly-Anna world”. They can be oblivious to PAIN and complain about frivolous hang-nail discomforts of life.
I wish I could click my heels and grant you time to live life deliriously happy and satisfied ‘til you are old and grey like me. If it helps you, please know I care how you are feeling. I would love to bake some cookies and share a pot of tea with you… sharing many laughs, tears, rage or any of the human emotions we have all bottled up inside. I want you to open your heart and consider the goodness you see today. Maybe take a walk around your yard and let the beauty of nature clear the sadness out of your soul.
We have NO CONTROL over much that happens to our bodies, we only have control over how we REACT.
Rubyslippers I send you my very best thoughts & will keep you close in my heart. You will never be alone.
I am here. Bette dbamos1945