@abosier65 Don’t blame you for your feelings with brain zap. The couple of weeks I did ECT, I felt that it actually opened up memory connections. I’ll be starting TMS in a couple of weeks, noting this is not a brain zap and there is no need to be put under for it.

My new therapist does do EMDR and may be doing that in the future, but right now I have no full memories to get over.

Still not on any anti-dep. My damaged brain just can’t handle it.