@parus

What great insight you have provided for the "great fixer" mentality. You are right, there is no one who can fix us, the power is in our own hands and minds.

Your ideas about, "The depression monster comes a lurk, lurking, lurking. We are stronger than the heavy tread" is also a great descriptor of what it feels like to be overcome with depression. If you ever publish these thoughts it would make a good read for others.

I'm glad that you added, "Can't go back to the old ways." Every one of us needs new ways to cope.