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I want life to end & don't know what to do. Been here?
Depression & Anxiety | Last Active: Jun 23 8:44am | Replies (78)Comment receiving replies
@jimhd I also have had persistent depression. How I made it to my current age I don't know. I did have a therapist years ago who I admired so much and she helped me get through some situations that were really troublesome. Alas, I moved out of state and never found another like her. My first suggestion to you is to find a therapist that you can trust and be yourself. Very few of therapist I have had in the past failed me(I thought) and I'd go looking for another. One suggestion I did follow was to find a place where you can volunteer (ie. nursing home, church, re-hab hospital, SPCA etc) You will be doing something that will help yourself and you will meet others with whom you just may enjoy becoming friends with. That was my decision when I got so tired of feeling unwanted, not important, unlikeable, etc. I have since made friends with many people and now have two people in my life who care about me and I enjoy life with. I wish you good luck in your overcoming these problems. And, as others have mentioned, find and use prayer.
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@mtnmarge Over the past 20 years, I've had 15 therapists, most of them good. The reason for the high number is that most of them were doing their year of internship, and left to go to greener pastures. It's been a challenge to start over that many times. I went for a year twice with no therapist.
I have treatment resistant MDD, along with anxiety and PTSD. My wife and I live out in the country, making it hard to find friends and to volunteer. I visited hospice patients for around 5 years, which I enjoyed doing. I'd like to volunteer at the local humane society, but it's still painful to walk much since multiple surgeries the past two years. I also have CIDP, with pain in my feet and ankles and up to my knees. Chronic pain is the pits!
We attend church in another town, 30 minutes away, which limits participation to Sunday morning and the monthly senior lunch. That means we don't have friends to hang out with from church, as no one lives near us. My wife meets weekly with several other women for a knitting group (men not welcome, even though I knit), so she does have a group of good friends.
Prayer and Bible reading are regular habits for us (I'm a retired minister), but contrary to what many think, being a person of faith isn't a guarantee of good mental health, though I suppose it may be more likely. It's one of those "should" things. A Christian "should" be happy and well adjusted. As the old song from Porgy and Bess goes, "It ain't necessarily so". In a perfect world...
Enough about me. I'm glad that you have found ways to improve your life. I am in a better place than I was 20 years ago.
Jim