@lisalucier Yes, I have talked some about self-harm. Those thoughts do not go completely from me when I reach a hurdle that seems insurmountable. The thing is I know once I start it is not an easy act to stop. Not that it would lead to death or the like. I have not done so for around 3 years. I did not mention thus to any primary caregivers, but when past scars were seen it ended up in my chart online. I was furious and nearly started again. I know many do not understand self-harm and see it as a precursor to suicide. Nothing like ramping up the past. Arrgh they just don't understand!!!
Not wise to blow a fuse either...this information appeared in my record as well as the D.I.D. from the therapist. Went off on her for breaking confidentiality and then things-well. We, I and they are all me. Mostly integrated unless the stress becomes more than "I" can handle.
So even through all of that no self-harming occurred.
Thank you for asking. The ugly thing about self-harming is the shame from others which further reinforces the need to do so. Each urge resisted is a victory for the the one self-harming. Like other addictions-it can be overcome which [for me] does not mean the desire is not still there in hard times. This is likely true of any addiction
There are many types of self-harm and all are not visible.