@sporkandromi
Wow. I have no adequate words. You are walking such a hard road. I relate to all the feelings you described. Sometimes I feel like caregiving is challenging me, testing me in ways I never imagined. Bringing out feelings I would not have believed I would have, and of course want to reject the negative ones! (Nothing violent or abusive or anything, but self-pitying, resentful, offended, shocked, hopeless, etc). When I stop and reflect, and pray about them, I often am led to understand where they are coming from. We are just human after all!

You are carrying a lot at an age that no one expects to be enduring such suffering. It hurts my heart to imagine all that you must endure. I’m glad you posted and I pray you will make encouraging connections here!