You are certainly not alone. I have been providing care for two cancer patients very close to me, back to back. It has been very hard. I definitely struggled with what to say to people that insisted they really wanted to know how I was doing because they did not really have any interest in how I was doing. My heart really goes out to you. I found that a very difficult position to be in. In the second of the two battles, no one even asks how I am doing. I don't know. I have no words of wisdom. I just wanted to add one more voice to the idea that you are not alone. I hope you are hanging in there. Please tell us how you are doing if you would like to. I promise to, at the very least, read it and take it in.