I’m not Jewish so I don’t understand fully the nuances of Jewish marriage obligations. It seems there are nuances which focus more on being a good homemaker and creating a peaceful home, rather than on the emotion of love. Many people marry without love and many are happy even though emotional love does not grow.

I’m not sure from what you’ve told us how you are to blame for your husband’s anger issues or for your children’s issues.
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