Blindsides; I think that's what I was going through yesterday confused by it all with my husband. This disease is so baffling. one minute they appear okay; then it comes, subtle changes in the face, blank stares in the eyes, memory tripped up, meltdowns that lead to "stress" now his annoyance to anything high pitched with hearing, while I'm driving, the anxiety he has with any traffic situation, more stress, and now what appears to be some quirky movement with his mouth. It's hard to know but as caregivers, we are on alert, constantly. He's on lequembe his 14th infusion, and worried it's not working, but what does that really mean? Up, Down, Up, Down. This disease brings on constant fear. He goes for his MRI today, hopeful that the infusions are working, fearful that they may not be. I read Psalm 37.23 this morning......It is seeking God's direction and company that we find abundant life. God will get us where we need to go. God please help us, as we need your guidance every day, to follow your light.