Yes I have, too. But it's for a different cancer and the schedule is every three weeks for the rest of my life. This inconvenience is further exacerbated by the fact that I have to fly to the clinic, stay in a hotel for two days, fly back home, and then face a 7-14 day recovery from the side effects. That leaves 1 good week or so before it starts all over gain. Do I think it's worth it? I don't know. I try to stay positive and thing of the trip as a vacation away from home. But the monotony of it all does wear on me. I also struggle with how to live in limbo. I can't make any plans and feel unmotivated to continue my research: I'm a field linguist who works in Mexico on an endangered language. This makes me anxious and very depressed to not be productive. I have been thinking about cognitive therapy to see if I can change my outlook and help me deal with this living on a hamster wheel. other than that, I find ways to do activities that I like even when I'm not feeling my best.