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"Weaker" isn't a term I would use. I prefer more fortitude: "courage in adversity". The ability to see past pain and negative - to see better in the future and not look in the rear view mirror.

I have been addicted, to multiple things. I love margaritas, kailua and cream, Irish coffees, and Long Island ice teas. I cannot bring beer or liquor over the threshold of my home because if it is there and I allow myself to get to feeling sorry for myself, sad, or lonely: I drink until I fall into sleep easily.

I also have a sleep disorder, insomnia since I was 10.

I have mentioned in this forum before: suicide has always been a constant alternative in my life full of challenges. But I do not bring that across my doorstep either.

It has taken me until I am 70 to finally get a stronghold over addictive substances. I love the way oxycontin makes me feel, too, but keep it around the house? Never. And I let all my health care providers know it.

"Mother Nature", "genetics" whatever you want to call it intends to create stronger and stronger biology. She does her thing and those not blessed with the brain wired for fortitude (survival) will pass along one way or another.

I don't intent to mess with Mother Nature and use the will God gave me to keep moving forward, no matter the pain life deals me.

I am not stronger than others, I am just more blessed and know it. I try to bring others along with me...during the journey by setting an example. It is all I can do...play fortitude forward.

Lines in the sand. What keeps us moving forward.

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Irish Coffee! I remember many a night at the Buena Vista on the San Francisco wharf. They claim to have invented Irish Coffee. It's a marvelous and old restaurant/bar where you meet a lot of people. I miss those little glasses of IC....... But not that much!

The only other alcoholic drink I miss is a Bombay Sapphire martini, very dry, twist and an olive. At the end of my drinking I couldn't even taste alcohol. I still remember the smell and taste of Bombay Sapphire, and every time I walk in a restaurant with a large bar, I can pick out the pale-blue bottle instantly.

Small sacrifices for all the benefits I've gotten from sobriety - like my life! 15 plus years, and today is still the only day that matters.

Joe