@carlabaz I know the mental state, not knowing, how long do I have....the record that keeps replaying in my mind. I think that live for the day is important to strive for (still working on it) and finding fun things to do each day. MM is a manageable C. I will find out in 2 weeks if mine is confined to my bones, and I've read that chemo usually starts 10-21 days after (I'll let you know).