@tunared I have found from this group there are many of us who lose our loved ones of many years, before they leave this earth. I think each of us feel alone, each situation has differences and similarities. I have been married 50+ years also and this is not how I pictured this phase of my life. I'm glad you have day care. It took me a while to to hire help 1-2 days a week. No one can give him the care I can, but if I don't get help I won't be able to do it either. We're hanging in there with ya!