It's hard.

Ask yourself this. What do you have to live for? Is it important enough to fight for?
It is a fight.
Every day you wake up and get out of bed, is it worth it? Hiding it from everyone and telling them you're alright gets old. New pain all the time to the point you forget what sciatic nerve pain is. Feet swollen to the point you swear they will pop. The parasentesis bi-weekly or more. My favorite being told you can't do stuff and go places because there is no hospital nearby. I don't know your situation or circumstances I wish you the best. Please don't take any of this wrong.
A lot of people would do just about anything for another shot at life. I learned a few things. The people you love and care about and do the same for you are the most important people in your life cherish them. When you die you can't take anything with you and it's honestly the most freeing feeling ever because nothing on this plain matters at that point life goes with or without you.
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL, ENJOY IT. Experience it, hopefully this will help you learn to live life to its fullest because you may get a chance.
My wife asked me a few times if I would do it again, because I am lucky enough to have this woman in my life I would. If noone depended on me I wouldn't. I say that based on the fact that it is an unknown fight.