@kathy26 I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your husband and your depression. Life doesn't always deal us the deck we want. When my mother died I went into a grief workshop for 6 months. Most of the people in there had lost their husband and/or wife. I believe it was a hospice related work shop; I found it to be so helpful in getting my life back together and not being so dreadfully sad, and guilty for all the things I should have said, done and didn't do. You're right time is on your side. But if you can find it in your heart, to help others, volunteer at the hospital, school or wherever. Being a caregiver you have incredible skills, patience and fortitude that goes a long way in helping others - while helping rebuild yourself. I love to cook, and I find when I get depressed as a caregiver, I'm back into cookbooks, at the burner, etc. Find something that can get you excited during this depression,. AARP I believe has on the website, volunteer groups you can be part of. I know it's hard to find solace in an activity, when your heart is forever breaking, but by slowing opening that door, you may find something that helps lift you every day.
My thoughts are with you, and every caregiver out here on this site.