@jmjlove
Your story touched my heart so much. In so many ways.
I am of the Vietnam war age. I know what my friends endured over there to be spit upon when returning home. The horrors they saw and in many cases but not all, participated in.
Your husband went thru a lot and I honor him. Please share that with him.
It sounds like you made an unbearable situation bearable one trick at a time. Good for you. It sounds like you have a great mind to figure this out so far with so little help. VA was useless in those days.
I appreciated you sharing your story and realized you have accomplished MY DREAM.
I had set up a huge dream family when I was 8. I would have a very large family with oddles of grands, greats and great, great grandchildren. My children did not cooperate in my dream and that's the way it is. I have one grandson out of 3 children of my body.
However, my family also spreads across 5 continents with children of my heart. I feel so blessed by that. I have shared my heart with hundreds of folks across the world. We each have been blessed in our lifetimes.
I worked hard to honor my feelings what ever they were. On the hardest days, I would find one moment of joy and I would put it in my pocket and take it out at the end of the day with any others I collected and realized it was a pretty good day. Some days were just too difficult to categorize any other way. Small baby steps get you a long way.
I have the gift of sharing what worked for me to others who have known great pain cuz it takes one to know one.
On the days that were just too difficult to bear, I learned I had the best day when I honored the pile of crap that was on my plate that day. I became greatful cuz you truly have to know the bad or worst to FULLY appreciate the best.
I am happy for you, you rock!
Bright Wings
Thank you for your blessing it means a lot.