@chickenfarmer thank you I appreciate it. I read probably a book every other day. I’m a big nerd. I also do diamond art and watch hot in Cleveland and old Andy Griffith shows I’m an old soul lol but yes it’s been hard the last few days I’m trying to keep it together, but I made myself get out of the house today and go to my sister‘s football party. She was having at her house which was something I would usually hide from while I was going through these flareups and I actually had a great time because it was happening, but I wasn’t fixated. Thank you so much for your comments