@heavyphil

I was alone : (((, did not expect that doctor would "offer" to do it right there and was stupid to trust her that "it is just like some pinching feeling and some pressure" - well it was excruciating : (((... I was silently whimpering and when she was done I told her that it was horribly painful and that I am sorry that I made some muffled squeaking ( yeah, I am idiot like that, always feel need to apologize even when somebody is torturing me *sigh), and she said nonchalantly :
"Oh, you did GREAT ! I had many ladies jump off the table screaming " !

O_O (????? ) I was so much in shock, I honestly felt violated : (((. I needed 2 days to calm down and relax, my whole body was in some kind of total muscle spasm and my heart was racing whole night.

While I was growing up my mother was always telling me that most doctors have compassion of a "butcher" and I unfortunately experienced that "compassion" more than once in my life : (((.