@julestrip3 oooh boy. There’s always something to worry about isn’t there? And worry really does have a negative impact on physical health. That mind-body connection is definitely clinically relevant. I see it in my blood pressure and in my bloodwork when I’m stressed. My light chains and even my white count rise.
Whatever you decide about the surgery, you might try to find some stress relief through support groups, talk therapy or other avenues of relief. I’m going to take a pottery class at my local arts center. Pounding on clay sounds healing to me at this juncture. I’m also trying to let go of those things over which I have no control. That’s hard for me.
It probably seems a bit unsatisfying when what you really want are answers, but try to take some therapeutic steps and see if that helps with symptom reduction, or at least relaxation.
Will you let me know if you find something that helps?