Taarthi, Try not to be so hard on yourself. You are very sick, and you are a mommy, and a wife. That You have a lot going on, but I'm sure you know that already. Remember that is temporary.

Your health, and your daughter come ahead of all the other things. Your dear husband, will understand that and he can do the other house keeping things (I know that it is hard to turn the dishes, laundry, cooking over to someone else. But this is a time that you are going to just have to do it.

- Please ask someone for some help! I would start with your caregiver - Who is your transplant caregiver? Is he/she aware of your feelings? Do you have a friend or church members, neighbor, or relative who can help you out by playing or reading to her so you can 'just sit'. I know that you probably don't have energy for much more that that and she would probably enjoy the extra attention, too.

I am 9 years post transplant, and a grandma. I want to stress to you that one of the best things that I learned from my transplant experience is that it is OK to ask for help. It is OK, and encouraged to talk to your transplant nurse coordinator or a doctor. They have seen all of these emotions and struggles before. They should be able to provide some guidance, since they know your condition the best.

And you are always welcome to come here on Connect, and let it all out. We understand, and we want to support you, just like someone supported us.
I really care about you and I am sending you a virtual hug.
I'm counting off the days with you.