Frustrated and confused about my meningioma & an Update

August 2024 I was flying back east to see family. Unfortunately we missed the first flight so we were booked on a later flight but we’re going to be separated. I begged and pleaded with staff and the people around me to see if they would trade at least 1 seat so my youngest son could stay with me, but no one was willing. Right after we took off I closed my eyes and then started convulsing. I could hear everything around me but couldn’t move or speak. No one around me called for help and it lasted the whole flight which was about an hour. I was finally was able to stand up and get the attention of the crew but still couldn’t speak. They got me off the plane and took me and my kids to the hospital. They ran all sorts of tests including a CT. No mass on the brain, magnesium levels severely low. Doc determined it was a mini stroke. Since then I have had headaches, migraines, multiple falls and several times where I am like frozen and my brain goes on pause then awhile later I am back to normal but no memory of anything. Found a new pcp and he ordered an MRI and referred me to a neurologist. Said I was having absent seizures and partial seizures. He ordered an MRI as the first one was denied by insurance and then he wanted an EEG. Got the results back and they said I have 8x8mm meningioma on my right frontal lobe. EEG said I didn’t have any seizures during the test but can’t rule out epilepsy or seizure disorder. The neurologist said the meningioma is normally not cancer but they just want to watch it for now. I asked if we could just take it out due to the amount of pain it’s causing and he said no one will without proof it’s growing. He put me on injections for migraines and is working on getting ubrelvy approved. In the meantime I have had seizures about every other day and nothing is helping with the pain. I was at least able to talk him into checking it in 3 months not 6. My vision is going bad rapidly and nothing is in focus and I do have auras all the time. I also have CPTSD and severe anxiety and in the evening when doing nothing or very little I start to feel funny so I check my heart rate and it’s at 140-150 every night. I don’t know if that is a symptom of the tumor or what. I can’t even take a shower without be completely wiped out after. If anyone has any advice I would greatly appreciate it. Oh I am 43 year old female.