@bewildered , I know that you want the best for your son and it breaks my heart to hear how much you’ve been through, I truly feel that mental illness is one of the cruelest disease that can happen in our lives, I used to watch my husband look so lost and frustrated and I felt like my best friend is gone, it was almost like a death had occurred but he was still around physically, the reason why I say that it’s one of the worst diseases because you lose your loved one so quickly and you can’t even discuss the simplest things with them.