Thank you for the replies and concern. I let my son know today that I love him and that I hoped he would give me just three months to see if he could feel better with mental health treatment - however that looked - as he deserves to feel peaceful and happy and because he is such a beautiful and kind soul . I worked with the crisis line the whole time to be assured I was handling it in a proper way. He left my home - refusing to consider any kind of help outside help. Last time I allowed him to be under my support - physically and financially - to get well on his own terms- as I didn’t have the heart to demand treatment and risk losing him. I love him too much to allow him to go on suffering so that I do not have to worry. He’s my baby. I’d do anything for him. He left into the cold today at noon - assuring me that there were good Samaritans out there that would care for him. I asked him to please let me help him care for himself. I reiterated that I do care and love him so very, very much . He was with me here ten days- rescued from the streets of a large city- to rest from his bout of homelessness and to let the paranoia subside - but I did not have a customer for change. Last time I followed his lead - meditation, the church, new careers, and on..nothing changed truly - and it once again led to him giving away all he owned - possessions, phone , money and disappearing . I tried. I brought him from five states away to truly try to help him. He is such a beautiful soul - but he is unwilling to receive any help. It is his way or no way. You have to agree with every statement he makes about everything or you are against him. He would be my son one moment, and then disappear into an alternate reality. He was hard on me while he was here, trying his best to manipulate my heart - and it took all I had, NAMI and the crisis line to get me thru this. As well as all of you who took the time to reach out to me. Again, thank you. Please pray for him to be safe. My heart is breaking - but I know that by accepting his life as it was - of so many ups and downs and beating himself up and walking into homeless living once again - was offering only long term suffering - and driving a wedge between him and all his siblings. He needs and deserves help. It is my hope that he allows me to do just that. Again - thank you for caring.