I hope you all keep posting your feelings and frustrations here on this site. I think it is essential to our mental health to vent the frustration and anger we have from being in a situation in which we have no control. One thing that has helped me in my journey with my husband of 45 years is to realize that he has brain failure and to learn as much as possible about his dementia aka brain failure. What to expect at each stage. My husband is now in the moderate stage. This has helped me adjust my expectations of what he is capable of anymore. It has made it easier for me to live with these changes because I understand that he does not have any control over these changes. I try to work with what is still there. I am still lonely as he doesn't say much and doesn't ask any questions anymore. I have learned to live with the silence. I read a lot, pray a lot, post on this site and talk to my friends who understand what is happening in our lives. I also realize more and more that the only way this will end is when he passes away. I want to hang on to everyday with him even if it is lonely and frustrating.