@ellesea01 It can really be a very sad experience if you are having to go through any health crisis alone. Someone literally yelled at me the other day to get counseling and friends...like you can just randomly walk up to strangers and ask "wanna be my friend"? I've never had a problem making friends before, but people can steer clear of you if they see you are having a bad day. They tend to not want their own life to be disturbed. One day they may see how pain and fear can affect your everyday life without you being able to rise above it.