I am so sorry you’re having a hard time. Have you ever considered therapy? It has been a miracle for me and I have PTSD as well l have anxiety.
As hard as it is advocate for yourself. I always write everything down I want to talk about before I go into the doctor’s office. It helps me remember and keeps me centered on the topic

I hope this helps you some and know that you’re not alone. Feel better soon and have faith everything will work out for you!