I am just now new to this site. I am reading some posts regarding ideas for connecting, finding purpose, and essentially "getting out of" yourself. I have been there...and sometimes can sustain the optimism to make strides in that direction. It works like this: I walk 30 min a day for a few weeks. Then, either a person exhausts me, a situation happens, or I am triggered to sadness and I lose all.
It's not that I will not try again when I build up again- usually in a few weeks.
The debilitating exhaustion and complete deep depression with anxiety feel that any options for feeling better are for later. This pattern repeats itself over and over.
Those that speak of finding a reason to push through the days I can relate to very much. The best I try for day-to-day is really giving love to my dog and watching the ducks and geese out the window. Nature can calm me, help me see how animals just keep awakening daily and get through until night begins again. They even make me smile through everything.
I wish for others a way to smile in these dark times.